Wednesday, October 28, 2009

depressed...

which explains for the lack of posting..

of course,

this is in addition to the work. :(

sucks.

end.

Monday, September 07, 2009

why would i quit my country - part i

I recently read the experience of zewt dealing with an accident and the lovely tragedy of cops and tow-truck people. It brought back an unpleasant memory for me. Perhaps i might have talked about "it" before..perhaps i was trying to shut "it" off my memory system. Or perhaps "it" was so silly, i don't know how to comprehend. Allow me to recall about "it" briefly:

1. I was driving back home from work, circa 7-8pm. As the Sg Besi Seremban-KL highway was typically packed with cars, i took the Besraya highway instead. Just as i passed the Kuchai Lama traffic lights, my 12-years old Feroza 4WD began to shake. Fearing a car-breakdown, i drove to the side of the streets, before the car eventually came to a stop. I turned on the emergency light, opened my bonnet, and stepped out from the car. Then i called the Besraya Highway emergency line and they sent out an 'emergency' team to me.

2. I called my dad and a friend who lived in the area (to arrange for a tow-truck). The 'friendly' tow-truck said he will get there in 15 mins. Great. Sounds like a normal 'car breaking down' event.

3. Out-of-the-blue, a fast incoming car, swirving left and right..and crashed onto the back of my 4WD. His car was smashed. Mine was damaged, but fortunately, i was 20m away from the car. [lesson 1: Don't wait for help in the car. Stand some distance away in front, in a shelter/protected area]. I went to check on the injured driver, and he was a middle aged men, drunk, and probably in some shock and concussion.

4. Within mins, tow-trunk arrives, and people started to gather. The Besraya emergency guys arrived in their 4WD. The police arrived within minutes. A little concerned, i called home, and my sis and dad came over.

5. As with zewt's experience, instead of dealing with the trauma of the accident, these tow-truckers started to pess me about my insurance company, insurance deal etc etc. Everyone want a fucking piece of business. Eventually, i settled for one of the less aggresive companies, after consulting my insurance agent. [lesson 2: To scare away tow-truckers, one good way is to tell them that you re with "Kurnia" insurance. Apparently, Kurnia insurance has really bad reputation within the tow-truck /mechanics business...and typically, they don't get their payment on time, or in full.]

6. So, after exchanging the details, both the cars were towed away and all i needed to do was to make a police report, such that we can claim the insurance. At this point, i thought everything was quite smooth, apart from the pesky tow-trunk people.

7. I got to Jln Sultan Traffic Police HQ station, courtesy of the tow-truck guy. He had to tow my car to the police station to 'take photographs'. Meanwhile, i went into the station (my second!), and made the report. The reporting was simple (if you speak good Malay). After printing out the 2 pages report, the junior officer asked me to go upstairs to see an IO (investigating officer).

8. This is when shit hit the fan. The IO refused to sign off the report, and started asking me stupid questions like "Were you drunk? Were you speeding? etc". Then i told him that my car had stalled, and i stopped at the side of the road. Unsatisfied, he asked why i stopped at the side of the road. why don't i have the emergency 'triangle sign? why someone would hit my car? etc. This went on for almost 30mins.

9. The conversation with this IO went on for another 30mins. The IO started to put the blame on me, by saying, i "parked" my car in the middle of the road. I defended myself by saying my car broke down, and it was by the side of the road. Then the fault was not to stop in the emergency lane (which there is none!). Then the fault was not to have the emergency triangle sign or a safety cone. I did not tell the police that the other drunk was drunk. [Lesson 3: never try to be a nice guy in malaysia].

10. Sensing he wanted to 'settle', from his questions like "if you want, tell me, i can help you." "if you don't tell me the truth, i cannot help you." "this thing is very easy to settle one. I am the IO, my decision is final". However, being in NZ for several years, i came to the conclusion that i did not want to condone any corruption by being part of it.

11. Eventually, he gave up, and the IO signed the damn report. He gave me a summon for "stopping unnecessarily on the road". Rm300, take it, bitch.

12. I am angry. How could someone, who have done nothing wrong, in principle, get away with a police summon? Isn't the police supposed to help the victim? I am angry that the IO - Sargeant Rashidin wanted a settlement of some sort. I am angry that i felt powerless in the whole scenario, because i don't know the Malaysian laws. I am angry because there is nothing i could do.

Maybe i should learn the law of Malaysia...if rule of law is something being practiced. Anyway, it wasn't a big 'thing' but it underlined a thing to me. The police is Malaysia is fucked up. And that's is one of the reasons, i would quit my country for. But of course, only to a better place! hahaha

Friday, August 21, 2009

Bittersweet?

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Tears...of independence...

Touched and inspired by my friend Chuu Liu here...i commented:

Dear CL,

How i wish i share you sentiments! I long for the days that i can feel proud about my country. I do love many aspects of it. I love the people, i love the food. i miss the colourful KL streets, i miss the manglish and the kiasu neighbours. I yearn for the pan mee, malay songs and even chinese movies. Strangely enough, part of me have died in the past years.

I am still very excited about many thing Malaysians and Malaysia. I spent hours a week to read about our country. I spent similar amount of hours, thinking and talking about how things can be changed and be better. Why? Do i feel Malaysia being inferior - Not really. Do i feel Western/foreign's culture to be superior - Not really either.

The root of my disillusions, i think, lies is the gradual decay of my hope for the country. It lies in me, losing trust in Malaysians as a whole, would to be able to resolves our differences, and to embrace the reality of us being a nation. Or perhaps, i have been corrupted with the Western values of fairness, justice, and meritocacy - in that - i failed to see a future in for our nation.

it's a terrible feeling - for being stateless. it's a terrible feeling - for not feeling proud of one's nation. it's a terrible feeling - to for be lost.

my heart and soul cry for the nation. our nation. yet, i wonder these are tears of farewell, or tears of absymal sadness.

Merdeka...

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

what do you do

what do you do,
when the days are dark,
and there are so much ado.

what do you do,
when the field are ablaze,
and there is nothing left to sow.

what do you do,
when the food are gone,
yet you haven't eaten too.

what do you do....

*incomplete*

Monday, July 27, 2009

Content

A lot have been happening around me in recent weeks. Well,that is in addition to all the political drama in Malaysia and the exciting murder trials in New Zealand of course. I think i am in one of those phases of changes again. Perhaps it was because i have completed my experimental testing - hence i felt a relieve of some sort? These days, I am actually content. Content of my current being, and current state-of-mind/body/wealth/career/family/love. Content - not particularly estatic or joyful - but a quite blissful feeling inside. Mmm. Do you feel content?

In recent weeks, i have also embarked on two new distractions (mini-projects to keep my mind sane). I will write more about these projects as they progress. The past week, i managed to convince myself to go to badminton and indoor football again. The added endophine perhaps has made me felt contented. My research work has also gone to a steady progress (perhaps 75% speed)..which took some worries off my mind. I have not gone to the stage of panicking yet (where most phd students would in their final year, where they stop socialising, stop grooming, stop eating and basically devoted their entire life to the work).

Apart from myself, there have been alot of good news from my best friends too. Bijanbest is finally getting hitched with his favourite girl (Kakok). Ang is expecting a baby in 7 months (wow!). Simon, my nz bestmate, is finally 'hitched' again - after a long chase. Essam, another old-time Canterburian got married, after a long engagement, to the lovely Farah. Ye, another Canterburian recently had his first baby. Of course, there would be many other good news that i am not remembering at the moment or i am not aware of.

Nevertheless, it's great to feel happy already while it is still 27th July! I typically started getting depressed by May, and it never ends till mid August! :D In your face, WINTEr.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Malaysia Brain Drain - Pua Kien Seng...

This morning, as usual, i was reading my usual newspapers. And i found an interesting fact. Dear malaysian friends, do you know that a fellow Malaysian, whose independent Chinese school qualification (Tung Kao) were deemed not good enough for your local universities - invented the USB pendrive? He went on to be the youngest CEO of a listed Taiwanese companies. Wow. His name is Puan Kien Seng, hailed from a small village in Sekinchan, Selangor....

If not for him, USB would have come 3-5 years later, and we will still be paying $100 for one of them.


Puan Kien Seng (潘健成) was a graduate with Master degree in electrical and control engineering, from National Chiao Tung University, Taiwan, a degree may not recognized by his country. The market reported that he resigned the world first single chip USB flash pen-drive.

He is the youngest CEO of Taiex darling stock, Phison Electronic, at 33 years old. Phison means 5 persons who found the company, which included two Malaysian, Aw Yong Chee Kong and KS Pua, both are former students of Pin Hwa High School,Klang(巴生濱華中學). Note: KS Pua humbly disclosed to reporter that he is not the founder of Pen-drive, but his two partners/founders from the company, one of them is Malaysian Aw Yong Chee Kong(refer to interview by Sin Chew Daily dated 6-4-2009)

His biodata:

Birth date: 1974 in Sekinchan,Malaysia
Primary School: 育群小學 (1981 ~ 1986)
Secondary School: 巴生濱華中學(1987 ~ 1992)
Tertiary education: Bachelor of NCTU (交通大學), Taiwan (1993 ~ 1997), Master of Electrical & Control Engineering, NCTU, Taiwan (1998-1999)

Awards received:
* ”The President Award of National Management Excellence Award 2006”
(2006台灣國家十大傑出經理獎之總經理獎)

* “Outstanding Young Manager Award” of HsinChu, Taiwan, 2005
(2005台灣新竹區傑出經理獎之傑出青年經理人獎 )

* “Outstanding Young Entrepreneur Award” of TAIWAN BUSINESS AWARDS, 2005
(2005臺灣企業獎之傑出青年企業家獎)

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And yet, our beloved Malaysian govt is still sleeping. Our bright talents are all leaving for greener pasture. Perhaps, one day, it's just the indonesians (who will outnumber the Malays) and the Malays partying at Tanah Melayu ...then they will wake up.

Read more at source: Taiwan English News

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Don't read the following as a political post. Read it as a Humane post.

Source

Let’s clean up the police force and MACC, make Malaysia safe — Lim Guan Eng

JULY 19 — I do not know Teoh Beng Hock.

But now every Malaysian who reads will know who Teoh Beng Hock is — his open pleasant face, his distraught fiancée, and his twisted body lying grotesquely on the Malaysian Anti-Corruption Commission (MACC) building imprinted indelibly in our minds.

I vaguely remembered meeting him once. He was one of the many idealistic, bright and young Malaysians who joined the DAP after the political tsunami on 8 March 2008 that transformed our political landscape.

Teoh wanted to participate in the flowering of democracy and forge the real changes that promised equal opportunity, good governance and justice. Teoh wanted to be part of this amazing transformation shaping his country and future. He wanted to serve the public, through his position as a personal assistant to a Selangor State EXCO member.

This wish to serve has tragically cost Teoh his life, taking him away from his loved ones. Denying his parents of a son, his fiancée of her husband, and his unborn child of a father.

Teoh is not the only one. Before him there were many others, Indians Malays and Chinese but he was the first DAP member to die so cruelly.

I am still in a state of shock and am terribly upset at the MACC for allowing this to happen when Teoh was under their custody. Much as we know the evil that lurks within our security agencies, we are still shocked at such acts of depravity. Whilst the many officers are decent human beings, it is always the few criminal elements that shatter any belief that our security forces can protect us or genuinely fight corruption.

We can ask the police why they are wasting public resources to arresting Pakatan Rakyat (PR) leaders and members but not focusing their energies on criminals threatening our safety. We can ask the MACC why they are interrogating hapless personal assistants over a few thousand ringgit for 11 hours till 3.45am (who are not even suspects) but not applying the same harsh approach on those named in the RM 12.5 billion Port Klang Free Trade Zone scandal. We can also ask why the police and MACC allow themselves to be used as political weapons of BN.

But I choose to ask what wrong has Teoh done to deserve this? He did not steal or kill, he was only trying to do his job to serve and change Malaysia.

Which is perhaps why I cry but there are no tears!

Nothing said or done would ever wipe out the tears of Teoh’s loved ones. But if there is one duty we can do is to stop the deaths. To make sure that there are no more bright, young and idealistic Malaysians like Teoh dying in the hands of police or MACC.

This is one duty that all Malaysians whether fathers or mothers, sons or daughters must undertake. That we must clean up the police force and the MACC to make Malaysia safe for our children.

I still see Teoh’s crooked body lying there so helplessly in the MACC building. Like all Malaysians, we feel sad that we got to know Teoh Beng Hock after his death. But the memory of his ultimate sacrifice shall reside in our minds for the rest of our lives. And his dreams of a better Malaysia shall live in our hearts as long as we breathe.

Teoh Beng Hock, Rest In Peace.

* Lim Guan Eng is the Chief Minister of Penang and DAP Secretary-General.

Friday, July 17, 2009

fucking murderer....

DAP exco's aide falls to dead from MACC HQ

Since the mass media is blackout-ing on this news..here's the cut-n-paste job from Malaysiakini.

The aide of a Selangor state executive councillor plunged to his death from the Malaysian Anti-Corruption Commission (MACC) Selangor headquarters in Shah Alam.

Teo Beng Hock's body was found on the rooftop of a building next to the towering block which houses the MACC headquarters.

The 30-year-old former journalist was DAP exco Ean Yong Hian Wah's political secretary.

He was believed to have fallen from the 14th floor of the tower block where the MACC Selangor office is located early this afternoon.

Yesterday, Teo was taken to the MACC headquarters for questioning in relation to a probe concerning several Pakatan assemblypersons.

When the news of his death broke, Pakatan leaders, including Ean, rushed to the building.

Other DAP leaders at the MACC headquarters are Ronnie Liu, Teng Chang Khim and Tony Pua.

Both Liu and Teng, who were at building for more than an hour, confirmed that Teo had died.

Earlier, Selangor police chief Khalid Abu Bakar told Malaysiakini that the case was being investigated.

Speaking to reporters later, the police chief said the deceased was found clad in a black jacket, blue shirt and white pants.

Lawyer: He looked happy

MACC investigation division director Shukri Abdull (left) told reporters that Teo was released at 3.45am but did not go home.

According to him, Teo had wanted to rest for a while in the pantry of the MACC office. He was seen still sleeping there at 6am.

"Nobody saw him after that until his body was found at around 1.30pm," he said.

He repeatedly stressed that Teo was merely a witness in the investigation and not being probed.

Asked how they discovered the body, Shukri said they were alerted when they heard someone scream.

His lawyer M Manoharan, who accompanied Teo to the MACC office yesterday, said the deceased looked normal and showed no signs of being under stress.

"He was happy and looked composed. I had advised him how to handle the interrogation as I was not allowed in during questioning," he said.

Manoharan, who is the Kota Alam Shah assemblyperson, last saw Teo at around 7pm yesterday.

As of 6pm this evening, Teo's body was still on the roof top of the building.

Teo's laptop seized yesterday

Ean's office was raided by the MACC yesterday where officers confiscated a laptop belonging to Teo as well as a desktop computer.

The MACC also raided the office of Kampung Tunku state assemblyperson Lau Weng San yesterday.

Apart from Ean and Lau, six other Pakatan elected representatives are also under investigation - Teresa Kok (Kinrara), Hannah Yeoh (Subang), Elizabeth Wong (Bukit Lanjan), Dr Cheah Wing Yin (Damansara Utama) and Edward Lee (Bukit Gasing).

The commission had earlier quizzed several people, including the personal aides of five assemblypersons - Ean, Lau, Kok, Wong and Yeoh.

Selangor state representatives are given RM500,000 each every year to fund community programmes in their respective constituencies. The MACC has alleged that the funds have been abused by the elected representatives.

R Sivarasa, who is Subang parliamentarian, said that the death was under very suspicious circumstances.

"At this point, we are holding MACC responsible until we get a better explanation."

Meanwhile, Kok asked why MACC took Teo away for interrogation at 5.40pm yesterday thus forcing him to stay in the building overnight.

Pua wondered why Teo would want to stay back after he was released by his interrogators. “Anyone who is asked for statements would be told to leave after the procedure is over.”

He lamented that Teo's lawyer, Manoharan, was not allowed to be present during the interrogation.

Halimah Ali, a PAS exco in the Selangor government, also revealed that Teo had his car in the MACC building. “There is no reason for him not to go home."


FUCKING BASTARDS.

Thursday, July 02, 2009

Unwell

I have been unwell since Sunday. I think this is my longest bout of sickness...since a long time. I cannot remember being this weak for a long long time. I barely have enough breath to walk up the stairs. The mild winter breeze chilled my bones to the core. While my fever has subsided, but it is recurring at will. Considering the swine flu paranoia at the moment, i cannot even get some antibiotics for my possibly viral infection. damnit. and now, i have the chesty cough.

I hate winter!